1.So Long, Astoria
It was the first snow of the season
i can almost see you breathin
in the middle of that empty street
Sometimes i still see myself
in that lonesome bedroom
playin my guitar
and singing songs of hope
for a better future
life is
only
as good as the memories we make
and i'm taking back what belongs to me
polaroids of classrooms unattended
these relics of remembrence
are just like shipwrecks
only theyre gone faster
than the smell after it rains
last night while everyone was sleepin
i tripped through my old neighborhood
and resurrected memories from ashes
we said that we would never
we were really just like them
does rebellion ever make a difference
life is
only
as good as the memories we make
and im taking back what belongs to me
these relics of remembrence
are just like shipwrecks
only theyre gone faster
than the smell after it rains
So long astoria
i found a map to buried treasure
and even if we come home empty handed
well still have our stories
of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
broken bones, and all the best of friendships
and when this hourglass
has filtered out
its final grain of sand
i raise my glass to the memories we had
this is my wish
this is my wish
im takin back
im takin them all back
2.Takeoffs And Landings
On this coldest of January nights
We drive out past the runway and watch the planes go flying by
The runway lights are the deepest blue like the colors of your
eyes
So close them tight and kiss me one last time
If you could go anywhere right now
Where would you go？
And would you miss me when you get there？
No place that I would rather be
Please don't let me go falling from the sky
The 'fasten seatbelt' sign just needs to go out
If only you could be right here by my side
Home wouldn't seem so far from here
Passport, customs, carry on, remember
To shut off all of your electronic devices
Fell asleep on Tuesday woke up Monday afternoon
I slept right through your International Date Line
If you could go anywhere right now
Where would you go？
And would you miss me when you get there？
No place that I would rather be
Please don't let me go falling from the sky
The 'fasten seatbelt' sign just needs to go out
If only you could be right here by my side
Home wouldn't seem so far from here
Please don't let me go falling from the sky
The 'fasten seatbelt' sign just needs to go out
If only you could be right here by my side
Home wouldn't seem so far from here
3.In This Diary
Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up：
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top's singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it's time to say, 'goodbye.'
Get on the bus, it's time to go.
Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up：
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart,
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
4.The Saddest Song
Only two more days, until your birthday
Yesterday was mine
You'll be turning five
I know what it's like, growing up without your father in your
life
So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And I hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all
maybe someday
you really get to know me
not just the letters read to you
I pray I get the chance
To make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do
So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And hope someday you'll find it in your heart
To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all
Forgive me!
I'm so sorry!
I will make it up to you....
5.Unopened Letter To The World
If i died tomorrow
would this song live on forever？
and here is my
unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply
if i died tomorrow
would this song live on forever？
and here is my
unopened letter to a world
that never shall reply
never shall reply
from this second story window
i can hear the church balls calling out my name
this table is set for one
even angels would be homesick
in this forsaken town
on random notes of parchment
i'm scrawling my existence
dressed in white
this candle radiates throughout the night
and it's never burning out
never burning out
from this second story window
i can hear the children down on main street
they're singing their songs tonight
in the shadows i will listen to their every movement
Mr. Higginson am i not good enough for the world？
am i destined only to die
the same way that i lived,
its seclusion？
but high up on this mountain
i can almost see your lonely window sill
they'll carry you off tonight
there's a ghost in your old bedroom
and a candle burning bright
if i die tomorrow
will this song live on forever？
6.My Reply
got your letter and the poetry you sent me
postmarked in december of last year
i really hope you're doing better
all your friends close by your side
one step closer to recovery
i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you
i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note
thats sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on／ just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on／ just hold on
these arms remain stretched out to you
maybe someday you'll accept them
maybe its too late to save a young girls heart that slowly
stopped beating
(maybe)
wake up wake up you've gotta believe
wake up wake up
you cant give up time keeps going on without us
long after we're dead and gone
i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you
i appreciate but cant accept this thank you note
thats sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on／ just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on／ just hold on
7.All You Can Ever Learn Is What You Already Know
Is this how it was intended？
The sunrise over smoke stacks in the Midwest, the beauty of this
abandoned factory.
Christmas lights blinking on and off all out of time
in what used to be the bleakest dreams of middle class America.
I'm trying to believe in you, but all these satellites and
shattered dreams are blocking out my view.
Please don't forget who you really are, because nothing really
matters when we're gone.
Fell in love with his keno waitress.
They honeymooned in Memphis; they were married by the drive up
window.
Trailer parks, neon signs, and an empty box of Lucky Strikes：
all used up from the dashboard of America.
I'm trying to believe in you; this world sold its fate for
parking lots and drunk sincerity.
Please don't forget who you really are, because nothing really
matters when we're -
You'll be saddened to know the train tracks you once walked as a
young boy are now nothing but a graveyard.
Please don't forget how small we really are, because nothing
really matters when we're gone.
8.The Boys Of Summer
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home
But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy？
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
Out on the road today, I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, 'Don't look back. You can
never look back.'
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know？
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that hair slicked back and those Wayfarers on, baby
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone
9.A Beautiful Mistake
Maybe I'm not ready for this, and you know it.
Maybe I'm too scared to tell you what I'm really thinking
It's not fair to stay together because of regrets we might have.
I don't want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with
you？
I'm only trying to be completely honest.
So I guess this is the ending or a beautiful mistake.
And if we both agree that we shouldn't be together why does it
hurt so much？
I feel like I lost my closest friend.
I don't want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with
you？
I hope you're happy and completely lonely.
There I am standing all alone on Sydney Harbor Bridge.
And you know I would jump into the fucking ocean if it meant I
was truly capable of being satisfied.
Well I ever be？
Did I just give up the best thing I ever had？
I don't want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with
you？
I hope you're happy and completely lonely.
I don't want to fall asleep alone, but do I want to wake up with
you？
I'm only trying to be completely honest.
10.8 Of 9
these hospital walls are the palest of white
here in this desert they're reciting my last rites
the smell of these halls
brings temporary comfort
as the oxygen flows through my blood
el corazon was poisoned tonight...
she's on her eight of nine.
when half of all your prayers are insincere,
the other half are lies.
here is this watermark under this bridge.
the point where it all crested,
rolled back and drifted into the sea.
i climb from this wreckage
as the smoke begins to clear from my lungs.
the closest of close calls has happened tonight.
it's time that i made things right
for the first time,
since the last time.
let this moment of clarity
lift this curse that has been cast upon me.
appreciate the good times,
but don't take the worst for granted.
'cause you only get so many second chances
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